Happy 2005
9:36 pm Sat, 1st January 2005
Caught the annual NYE fireworks on Sydney Harbour last night. For some reaon, I never get sick of watching this magnificent and awesome show. I love fireworks, and it still fills me with a childish glee to behold such splendor. 🙂 I still remember the moment, standing at Milsons Point, almost under the harbour bridge… as the clock ticked to midnight and the bridge exploded in an awesome display of light. *sigh* I love it.
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And so it is 2005 now. What a year this has been. And I’m not sure I mean that in a good way. Honestly, this year has gone from bad to worse as the months passed by. And now I’m standing here at the beginning of a new year, having absolutely no idea what lies ahead for me.. feeling like I’m at one of the lowest points in my life. I think 2005 will definitely be a year of self-discovery. All my life I have floated along, just doing what was expected, doing the “right” thing, following the crowd… you know – getting the good HSC mark, going to uni for the standard 3 year degree, coming out and getting a job, having a boyfriend with whom you have a outlook to marry, being involved at church, leading at the youth group. Well.. I’m no longer leading at the youth group now and no longer have the boyfriend. So.. thats 2 down.
I just don’t want to follow the crowd anymore. Doing the standard thing, worrying about whether my actions have the approval of others, but not really truly believing in what I’m doing. Hm.. meh.. I dunno what thats supposed to mean.
Anyways. Sorry this post has turned into a ranting morbidly depressive post. Here’s to a Happy New Year. Hope its better than the last one eh. I leave you with this magnificent photo.
Disclaimer: Many thanks to Andrew Newton for the amazing NYE photography. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THESE PHOTOS AS THEY DO NOT BELONG TO ME AND I HAVE ASKED HIM PERMISSION TO USE THEM. And I also blame my bodies hormonal cycle for this post. (Reads: I’m currently “surfing the crimson wave”).
Current listening :: “Let Down” – Radiohead (“Let down and hanging around.. crushed like a bug in the ground…” Hehe.. nice song. :P)
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5 Comments on “Happy 2005”
mockkie
Jan 2, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR KAZZY!!!
May this year bring many opportunities to serve and glorify our great God. That your life may be a shining example and testament to the love and grace of our Lord Jesus Christ to all around you.
Keep growing!!! 🙂
CC
Jan 3, 2005
Happy NY, Kazz! Ditto to the above! Or below…. or wherever Mockkie’s blurb ends up relative to this! =)
nate
Jan 4, 2005
Those photos are brilliant
Happy New Years!
leo
Jan 5, 2005
h n y 🙂
i enjoy ur honest posts, keep it up! all the best in the coming year, and may your search lead u to something worthwhile!
Kazzart
Jan 6, 2005
Thanks guys. Hope you all had a happy new year too.
Leo: Thankyou. 🙂 Yeh, they are rather honest posts hey. Glad someone appreciates my morbid honesty.. heheh.. 🙂